Face 4 of 29 faces and a card for today

I took a day off yesterday. First I woke early and did a half hour of yoga. This time connecting to my body and mind made me realize that I have been trying too hard to fit in too many kinds of creating and realized I was starting to stress over things. Just because I quit my job to do art didn’t mean I can do it 24/7 and not feel adverse effects. I hadn’t done my yoga for weeks before that morning and my meditation was nowhere to be found.

I crashed yesterday on this realization and did an hour of meditation. Actually it was more like an hour of past-life regression. After that experience, I found myself so disconnected through the day that I gave the boys a day off and I thought I’d do some art. But I couldn’t because I was now releasing and dealing with this regression of another lifetime that I just experienced in my meditation process. …just trying to clean out the goop from my soul…

By the end of the day I was able to sit down a bit more aware of my Self again and out came this lady. She kind of squeezed her way out of my pencil and onto the page. This rarely happens. I usually sit there waiting until I see something.

She is my face #4 – I guess I should be on #6 now so I am two behind. That’s okay, I realize that now. When I go into something I go full force and sometimes get in too deep so I needed to pull myself out for a bit. She gave me a flower, saying, ‘be gentle with yourself’. Thank you, Self.

(also following along when I can with the Creative Every Day for this week)

This morning, after another early yoga practice, I wrote down the 10 things I am grateful for, one of those being that I am still doing the list (!), I drew a card for the day. This is another thing I hadn’t done lately and I felt I needed to tap into the Universe and say, “Hello, remember me? Can I come in? Can we chat for a bit?”

I asked the deck for guidance for the day, what I needed to focus on and this is what I was given:

I tend to let the card speak to me and then read a bit about it.

• she symbolizes creativity, doing what you love

• there is a playfulness that affects others

• when you do what you love, others will find passion too

• the fox clan is like a family, supporting and sticking together, they look so playful too

• she is also a teacher and her pupils need her and they gather round – she must not forget responsibilities…

• wands are the symbol of the fire element, fire is passion, emotion

For today, I focus on family, on teaching my boys and being mindful of the moments. I do love being a part of their learning, it is such a privilege. It’s an amazing experience and I hold it so dear.

There is also time for creating, following passion and my family will/does support me. This card tells me it can be done but do so by enjoying the moments, focus on quality of those moments and not about quantity. (I am behind in my 29 faces and way, way behind in my Documented Life Project, and I have a blog header to paint for a lovely lady.)

This all is a learning experience for me too from the Universe and my children – how they can so easily absorb themselves in the moment. They are my teachers.

So I keep on keeping on, is what this says to me. It’s a reminder to take the time to enjoy the moments, the teaching, the responsibilities, and to really hold onto the creating but lighten up! Embrace!

Happy creating happy moments!

Moongirl